In all this crazyness it may appear on the surface that there is one little one somewhat overlooked. Quite the contrary. Olivia has been our life line in all of this and I can, without a doubt, say that facing the possiblity of burrying another child with my arms full, is worlds easier.
Not easier in the sense that we're preparing ourselves to lose another one, but that loss isn't a total consumption of our lives. Olivia is so vibriant and wonderful, we simply don't have the ability to wallow in self pity...she is our life line in this whole crazy life and we're so incredibly glad we have her to hold, laugh with and cuddle.
As we stumble along learning about being parents to Olivia we take with it some wonderful memories that a part of me believes I'll always remember, but the rational part of me knows that when her next wonderful phase kicks it, there will be more wonder and amazement for us to absorbe that we'll have to forget some wonderful things to make room for the new.
Thus, here are some of the fun and wonderful things Livy is doing that continues to touch our hearts:
Right about the time when we started doing our medication injections for Payton's IVF cycle, Olivia decided she was facinated with my belly button. Back in early November she was still fairly new with a number of words so she would dig for my belly button and then once she found it, she would ask "What's this". My response, "Mommy's belly button". Her response, "Button".
Then she would lie her head on my belly button. Sometimes she would fall asleep that way. This was so wonderful for a few days until the meds started to do their job and I started to get bloated. By day 10 on high dose hormones it was painful to walk I was so bloated (and it was only getting worse) but by this time Livy was facinated and fixated with my belly button. It became a regular occurrance for her to lie her head on my belly and often at night it was the only way she would quietly go down to sleep. I broke my heart those nights it was too painful to let her lie there and instead Dwayne would have to put a screaming child to bed, calling "BUTTON" over and over again until she passed out from exhaustion.
Fast forward 5 months and she's still doing it. Sometimes I wonder if its her 6th sense knowing her little sister is in there and possibly needs her big sister to look over for her. Or mayber its her way of being as close to her as possible.
Regardless as to the reason, as my belly gets bigger, its getting harder and harder to let Livy lie on the "button" (as she calls it) but we still manage to make it work and on some level I think Payton either knows her she's there and takes comfort or she's already tormenting her big sister or (and most likely) Olivia's head squishes her, because when Livy lies her head on my stomach, Payton often starts kicking in that exact spot (or moves from kicking a different spot to that spot).
Livy's hair is still slightly challenged and hasn't grown much. We worry that she'll be entering kindergarden with short hair (not due to cutting) and while it works in our favour because she still looks so young (despite currently wearing up to size 4 cloths) she also often gets mistaken for a boy (despite days when she's decked out in pink).
On another note, Livy is gearing up for her terrible twos and we are starting to see glimpses of where her wonderful little mind and curiosity are taking her. We caught her this morning drawing on the walls with her washable window markers (which she's been good so far in limiting them to the patio window, her shoes, hands and sometimes her mouth). Alas, the wall graffiti has begun.
Here's a couple of pics of our little trouble maker in action:
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